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A hundred times I (didn’t) miss you.
I miss you.
Oh, how I miss you.
Your coffee is getting cold
Being lonely is getting old.
I miss the way you said my name
Silently on hold.
I miss waking up next to you
Only you were never there
So I guess all of this really isn’t fair.
I longed for that kiss goodbye
As I walk down the stairs
I must have just missed you.
You don’t really care.
I missed you in the audience of my show
Because you know, you never go
But let’s just go with the flow.
I miss you.
Oh, how I miss you.
I miss that time you kissed me on the beach.
That kiss was just out of reach.
Sorry, this has become quite the speech.
I really did miss you.
I miss you because you’re familiar, not because you’re safe.
I mostly miss you when you’re late.
I miss you when you’re sober.
I missed you before you said it’s over.
Remember that big trip?
Yeah i missed you.
Oh, how I miss you.
I miss the way you taste
Like a spoiled wine you drank too late.
A hundred times I miss you.
But not the way you think.
And every night I go to sleep
I miss you.
The Hero Complex
A poem I read at the spoken word poetry event:
He has an infinity for the broken.
The Dramatic.
Anything or anyone who needs him. He will come swooping in like a knight in shining armor on the day of battle.
On the eve of battle he will be no where to be found.
He will profess that he loves you, but what he loves is the broken pieces of you that reflect him.
Look how good he is to you. That is the lie you will tell yourself.
Look.
How.
Good.
shines each broken piece.
Yet, you throw a blind eye to who threw the rock at the mirror.
Are you afraid of the dark?
Getting ready for Oct. 24th spoken word poetry event. Here is another new poem;
When we were young,
How many of us cried out,
“Just wait until I’m older!”
Look, as the adults around nervously fidget in their seats as their minds raced to –
“Don’t wish this hell on yourself.”
Remember when Hide and Go seek was a game you played with friends?
Well now that I am older it has become a game I play with love.
Love doesn’t play fair. It’s like Red Rover, Red Rover
Except love clotheslines you.
Every. Single. Time.
Mom kissing my skinned knees when I fell
Became Mom trying to get me to stop hyperventilating
long enough for me to tell her
he doesn’t love me anymore.
When I was young,
it was the monsters under the bed that scared me.
No one warned me to be afraid of the monsters in my bed.
I didn’t realize monsters could look so much like men that I loved,
so much so that I started questioning love and not men.
We learned to grieve when our pets passed away,
but how little opportunity we had to learn to grieve when the love of our life chose to walk away.
“Hey, I can still see you over there.
Happy.
Without me.”
How we are so affected by the choices we make
and don’t make,
and how they control our lives.
Love scares me
You scare me
He scares me
She scares me
I guess you could really say
I scare me.
What a beautiful world we live in,
where we can face that fear head on
and come out a little bit more alive.