I found this written down on my notepad from June of 2015. It may have been advice to my future self:
A charming man is a dangerous man. They will charm you right out of your pants, and right into a broken heart.
While opening car doors is a nice gesture with the intent of displaying that he thinks of you first, a true gentlemen also thinks of you first. It is evident in how he talks to you and about you, your heart is his utmost pride to protect.
“He’s just so hurt, and he makes a decision which actually turns him into the man we know him as now. Never to enter into a long- term relationship. Never to be that hurt again. And somewhere he says, from now on when I see love, I’ll pluck it, I’ll eat it and throw it away. And that’s what he does.“
Hiding behind the blame of a painful past is weakness manifesting in you, powerful people do not live like a victim.
You have allowed pain to turn you into something you are not. There is a dam that you built up around your heart that is only within your power to open up. Do this, not to appease someone else, but for yourself. The pressure you feel is a vulnerability anticipating bursting forth through the flood gates allowing you the experience of unconditional, unimaginable love.
A man who loves like this with only his mind, but not with his heart, will never find true happiness. We become unhappy when we think love is something we require from someone else.
Know that happiness is when what you say, think, and do are all the same.
An apparition of Lucrezia