Your Silence is Deafening
I know I’ve been quiet here lately. I was doing so good, scheduling a post for every Sunday. Then the last couple weeks or so (Okay, okay – 3 months) I just haven’t had anything to say.
I mean… I have things to say. Things I could talk about. But even those things, even things I would normally be passionate about, have not been able to spark even the slightest bit of fire in me.
I have been thinking a lot about love the last few days. Mostly that a relationship is not love. A relationship can build love, it can have love, it can show love, grow love. But a relationship is not love. So when a relationship ends, love does not always end with it.
I am sad today. For no reason and all the reasons. And I am happy that I am sad.
My heart wants to hurt. It would be so much better to feel something, anything. I keep falling into a dull numbness.
So, today, I am grateful for feeling sad. That is okay, too.
Posted on September 13, 2016, in Home Front and tagged breakup, emotions, feelings, numb, relationship, sad. Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.
Ashlee Karin 
I never thought being sad was a bad thing persay, makes you think, reflect, grow etc. And often times we don’t give our mind that chance, it just ends up gogo, keep up the routine.
I agree, B! I think emotions are meant to be felt and experienced. I also think it is important not to push those emotions off or dismiss them. (And equally important not to be consumed by them). Routine seems to drown out emotions. “What is this feeling?! This isn’t part of the process!” Lol.
Lol, exactly. Its a fine line, not being consumed and understanding. Its rough to balance for sure
Love is the most brilliant, beautiful, painful, horrible, worst, best thing there is on this Earth.
Perfectly put! It truly is awfully wonderful (or wonderfully awful).